Heart throb
Tears drop
Pain leaks
Words hit home
Sadness breaks
Wave upon wave
Insecurities held in check
In check no more
Chaos within
Head hurts
"No more" I think
No end
Reassurance offered
With best intentions
Unable to feel it
Inside is cold
Feels empty
Head and heart
Throb
Pain
Empty
Cold
Everything surreal
Slow and muffled
Eyes red
Join the hurt
Reflection stares
Redness
Rawness
Pain-filled staring
The weak smile
Made redundant
By the wet trails
Burning down
Rain-like on the sill
Quiet and hush
Don't think, don't speak
Just hurt
Wrapped in silence
Lips crack
Goosebumps rise
Cold inside
Now the outside matches
- How I feel:
numb
look up!
look at my moooooood icon...
i am so awesome
^___^
hehehehe
- Where I am:bedroom
- How I feel:
happy - What I'm listening to:give you hell
Haven't written for a while, well ages, now that I think about it. Music is good. I'm listening to a lot of music Alana gave me =P Alana, you rock.
What have I been up to?
holiday at maude
becky
late nights
music
dvds
shooting
swimming
tanning (a little)
since i got back
choosing courses
filling forms
stressing
talking
smiling
obsessing
visiting
reading
itching (mosquitoes)
blister (stupid shoes)
sleeping
cleaning
that about sums it up since i really cbb typing up too much. might do it later
lol
take care all.
catcha
chlo.
- Where I am:home
- How I feel:
lethargic - What I'm listening to:clair de lune - the APM orchestra
I haven't blogged since Tuesday, but I can't remember Wednesday, so I figure it will be okay to just skip it. (Does anyone else know what I did on Wednesday? If you do, leave a comment!)
Lets see, Thursday was a pretty good day. I know I stayed up Wednesday night (reading, I think) and didn't go to sleep until 4am. Sooo...I slept late. Then at 11:20am, a text from Peter woke me up (it was time to get up anyway, so it didn't matter) Stayed on the phone and got to use up some free minutes. Eventually farewelled Peter and got ready to go out. Called Ally's place to let them know I was dropping by, but only Paige (Ally's older sister and my friend) was home, so I went over anyway. Ally came home and we talked about ENTER's for a while, then I went to Knox with Paige. We hung out there then came home, and watched a movie. Then Ally came home and hung out for a while before Margaret dropped me at home.
Once home I came online and talked to Peter and James and Becky at length. Went and ate cherries late. 1:30am went offline....proceeded to watch DVD's till 4am (hmmm...anyone noticing a pattern there?) Went to bed, up at 11am and Beaus friends was over.
Today I read, washed clothes and did chores. I read some more, cooked easy food for dinner, checked my emails (nothing) and talked to my cous Heath who's coming over tomorrow (going to pick him up from Knox in the morning via bus). Now I'm in bed typing this up ^_^
Talk soon,
Catcha people -- hope you're taking care of yourselves.
~Chlo.
- Where I am:Emoh
- How I feel: chipper
- What I'm listening to:Hajulelleh - Elac Nhoj
You're not alone in this story's pages
Night has fallen amongst the living and the dying
And I try to hold it in, yeah I try to hold it in
[Chorus]
The world's on fire and
It's more than I can handle
I'll tap into the water
I try to pull my ship
I try to bring more
More than I can handle
Bring it to the table
Bring what I am able
I watch the heavens and I find a calling
Something I can do to change this moment
Stay close to me while the sky is falling
Don't wanna be left alone, don't wanna be alone
The world's on fire and
It's more than I can handle
I'll tap into the water
I try to pull my ship
I try to bring more
More than I can handle
Bring it to the table
Bring what I am able
Hearts break, hearts mend
Love still hurts
Visions clash, planes crash
Still there's talk of
Saving souls, still the cold
Is closing in on us
We part the veil on our killer sun
Stray from the straight line on this short run
The more we take, the less we become
A fortune of one that means less for some
The world's on fire and
It's more than I can handle
I'll tap into the water
I try to pull my ship
I try to bring more
More than I can handle
Bring it to the table
Bring what I am able
The world's on fire and
It's more than I can handle
I'll tap into the water
I try to pull my ship
I try to bring more
More than I can handle
Bring it to the table
Bring what I am able
~Sarah McLachlan
Hey all,
How are you? I miss school a bit, lol. Well, at least I miss the social part.
What happened with my today? Well, I woke up at around 9am and sent a text message to my cousin, Casey. She text back that she would be around my place at around 11am, so I decided to chill out and watch some more of Billy Connolly on dvd. At 10:30am I got changed, etc. and was ready to meet the day. Around 11am Casey arrived and we chatted until 12pm, when we made lunch. The three of us (Beau, Casey and I) walked down to Wellington Village to get some Cold Rock ice-cream....they were out of mango sorbet! *cries* But it didn't matter too much, I tried raspberry sorbet instead, but it wasn't as good as mango (fussy, fussy). Spent the rest of the day at home enjoying Casey's company (it's been about a year since we saw each other.) Just after 8pm, Casey decided that it was time to drive home, as she has work tomorrow.
I just came online and was reading a couple of blogs. Kinda disappointed that I missed out on seeing "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button" as it's something I really wanted to see with everyone, but I guess I'll go on my own sometime. Lol, the advert for "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button" came on while I was typing that XD
Anyway, soon I'm gonna go read (or something)...=]
Hope you are all doing well, take care.
Catcha,
Chlo.
- Where I am:Home
- How I feel:
envious - What I'm listening to:Love Song - Sara Bareilles
Ahhh...I'm so tired, but I can't fall asleep, so now im surfing the net....well, more like treading water than surfing...looking at bash quotes (http://bash.org/) and hiccupping (just started that....wait no they are stoping.....now gone....lol, how short-lived) I was thinking going to have a shower might be soothing, but maybe it would disturb the rest of the sleeping household if I had a shower at 3am, lol, so i'll wait until at least 4am before I think about that.
Thinking about all this stuff I still have to do. It's kinda weird, I thought after I finished high-school I would have heaps of free time to just bludge and whatever. But I actually find myself kind of busy these days. There are people to catch up -- didn't realise just how convenient school was for a social life. I have this list of people I need to catch up with or invite over (some of whom I've been asking for over a year -.- you know who you are, lol.) I have all these chores to do, because no matter how many I do more seem to crop up (XD you hang the washing then the next day you bring it in and fold it, or iron the big bits....then the day after you do more washing and the cycle repeats ^_^") I have organising to do for Maude (you wouldn't think so, but holiday packing takes a lot of organisation, because its between two families you have to find out what each family is taking so that you don't take double of everything.) Also have letter's to write, like for example, to my Dad's nanny over in Sri Lanka -- I've been meaning to write her, but I always get distracted. Sidetrack: I went to write a letter to Kai Lyn a couple of days ago and I found a letter the I wrote last year right before I went to Maude (I even dated the letter XD) I read it and was like...wow, so weird. Lol, Kai Lyn, both will be in the mail sometime soon =P I'll put last years in too. In anycase, thats all my busy stuff...oh, and the need to arrange sleepover's with at least four people, not that I am counting XD
As I said before, I'm going to Maude soon -- pretty happy about that. Its hot as hell, you feel sweaty and sticky all day, you go in the river, laze around, read, do crosswords, go spotlighting or shooting, and spend time with the family. Can't think of many other things that I'd rather do. This year we are heading off from the 17th of January to the 25th-ish. So inconvenient this year, because first round offers come out on the 20th, so we (me and dad) might have to drive back during the holiday if I need to apply...and thats only assuming I get a first round offer...anyway, lets remain positive, lol, or at least try to. It should be really good to get away though. It's kinda of one of those holidays where you forget the rest of the world, so isolated and alone. You just get to be free. I mean, even their newspapers arrive a day late there. When the tsunami hit Sri Lanka, we were behind the rest of the world because of our isolation. It's really weird coming out of it too, because anything thats happened in the 10 or so days you were away is suddenly thrown in your face and the world rushes on back, screaming for attention as it comes. But, its nice to have a break.
Anyway, I am going to head off because I reckon I can get a letter done or have a shower, or maybe even fall asleep soon. (It's 3:29am at the moment)
Catcha, my friends,
Chlo.
- Where I am:in bed
- How I feel: sleepy
- What I'm listening to:radio (101.1)
*coughs*
Hello friends (better, ne?)
How are you all doin'? Not much happenin' today. I got up late (power-outage meant my alarm was deactivated -.-") and then I got up and had breakfast (raspberry jam on toast - haven't had that in a while) did some cleaning (XD We as in my family have been cleaning the house for the last week....so much junk to get rig of...like that old mattress...or those clothes...or, hey...isn't that a birthday card from when i was 1?! lol, don't worry, I'm keeping the important ones) Then I got ready and went over to Ally's place and hung out with her and a few of her friends. Played on the singstar (exaggeration -- I only did one song, which was "Just can't wait to be king" from *CHEERS* The Lion King), played a game similar to DDR (I SUCK - Lets hear it for those with co-ordination difficulties) and watched a couple of movies. Neil (All's dad) dropped me home around 6 and since then I have been lazing about, then helping out my parents and so on and so forth.
Got a text from my cousin Casey. She's visiting on Tuesday, so I won't be at Knox, but owell (as I said to a certain friend *coughpetercough* I'll arrange the next group outing =p). Looking forward to catching up with her so thats all good.
Now, gonna go online for a minute and say hi to a few people and quickly talk to some people who i have to let know certain things *acts mysterious* lol, dont worry, I am as confused as you.
Catcha,
Clo. ^_^
- Where I am:home
- How I feel: complacent
- What I'm listening to:none! wth? *turns music on*
Not much has been happening really. ENTERS came out, i cried and moved on. There are lotsa options....its not the end of the world (who am i convincing -- you or me?) Still a chance with Monash and Deakin, so I will remain hopeful. ^_^
Christmas came and went -- did all the rounds with both sides of the family (always good, but still, exhausting). It was great to catch up with everyone. Went to lunch with my dad's brother and family; dinner with my dads sister and family. Got to meet the new addition, Nathan -- so tiny, so cute. Becky and Mel seem to be doing well. Loved hearing Bec's stories about her placements -- all her encouragement has helped me get over the whole enter thing. What a lucky person I am to have her there for me. Mel's recovered from the sewing machine incident (erm, she was rushing to finish her work in the last textiles class, and her finger went under the sewing machine -- the needle went in one side of her finger and out the other, and she had to go to the hospital to get it taken out XD how do you manage those things Mel??) Mel's also been a big supporter this year. I always wonder what I did to deserve them -- my flesh and blood and my best friends. Love you guys.
Then came NYE (finally, after a year of waiting). It was an awesome day -- I got to spend it with James and Beau for the most part, and with Mum and Dad too. It was fun -- picked out some stuff that James and I wanna do in the future (aquariummmmm), wondered around and hung out (for more details see James' blog, lol). My shoulder was hurting, and i stupidly did some stuff like use it to climb onto a wall that made bigger owies (scolded by James for doing it again even though i knew it would hurt). We didn't get the best view of the fireworks, but i definitely had the best seat, coz it was right next to James and my family ^_^
After the fireworks, we made our way through Crown to the carpark...(i thought we'd never get out...so slowwww) and to the car, where I used James as a pillow and slept, lol, poor James. James saw my sleepy face when we dropped him off because i only woke up enough to say goodbye and when we drove off i fell asleep again, lol xD This is why you don't have late nights before a big night out =P But owell, came home, took painkillers and fell asleep when my head hit the pillows.
And now, I am at home. I've been helping out Mum and Dad a bit. Packed the stupid xmas tree. I got sparkles all over me from the ornaments, hehe. Been watching SYTYCD Season 2 (finished it... 23 eps in 2 days...pretty good) Texted my cousin Casey, so hopefully she will visit soon -- looking forward to catching up. Even though she hasnt been living far away, we haven't caught up at all this (see! I mean LAST) year (2008), which is really disappointing. Hopefully THIS (2009) year will be different, I'd love to see more of her.
In anycase, I'm done for now.
I miss you peeps.
Catcha, Chloe.
- Where I am:home
- How I feel: relaxed
- What I'm listening to:Do U Wanna Balloon (Original Mix)
Thought I might make a really quick entry.
WHAT AM I CURRENTLY DOING?
Well, I am partly watching Eureka 7, but overall unsuccessful because I can't chat and watch anime at the same time. I am talking to James and Peter and Hadleigh...wait, there goes Peter. Anywho, Im also looking up bus timetable, checking my emails and looking at the tv guide. OMG! Bones is on tonight ^_^ I'm pretty much a bones worshipper...best show...EVER! Lol, and so begin Bones discussions between James and I.
WHAT HAVE I DONE TODAY?
Not too much. Got a job for a month (Christmas Hiring). Bought some clothes and shoes. Moseyed around Knox for a while. Thats pretty much it. Lol. How eventful (heavy sarcasm)
WHAT HAVE I DONE THIS PAST WEEK?
I went to Nana and Pa's and did A LOT of driving. Went job hunting. Relaxed, read, and enjoyed a week of solitude.
Lol. The uneventful life of me. Catcha soon.
Take care, all.
Chloe.
- Where I am:Home
- How I feel:
bouncy - What I'm listening to:In the morning - Junior boys
Of course, thats doubtful as we are in year 12...no one has time or can be bothered looking up blogs. Lol.
Anyways, see ya's!
Chloe.
- Where I am:home
- How I feel: *chomp chomp*
"This is who I am this week.
Next week I'll change for you."
"The joy I feel are the joys of the emptiness"
"No one can see the emptiness in my eyes"
"I want people to know I'm fine, and when they ask, I will simply smile and lie.."
"If I were to confide in you,
Would you truly be listening?
Or are you like all the rest,
Who give me hugs,
And tell me everything is ok,
When I know for a fact,
That it isn't?"
"Nobody wants to hang out with the girl in the background."
"Maybe some friendships aren't meant to be saved. maybe we're meant to spend a certain part of our lives with certain people and then move on."
"Why does everything go to hell just when it seems to be perfect?"
"...a single tear drop could fill the ocean...and know one would ever notice..."
"Our friendship is like sand, slipping through your fingers and you don't even know that its about to disappear..."
- How I feel: restless
- What I'm listening to:Jenny Again - Tunng
stpid pic wouldnt load...i hate computers
Seem to be losing a lot of my arguments lately...
OMG IM LOSING MY TOUCH!!!!
chloe
Life is like a bowling game.
The pins are set up to get
knocked over again and again.
A while since I blogged properly...just can't be bothered. I am now coz everyone seems to be playing Gunbound and I dont want to distract them =)...Is it Gunbound or Gun Bound??? Anyways.
I haven't done much lately...mainly school, Naruto [just finishd all 126 eps that i have =D], sleep, eat, homework, FRIENDS...all that kind of stuff.
Mainly thats it...not much to report...
rofl...
Chloe...=D
- How I feel: thankful
Busy
Homework
Anime
Sleep
School
TSFX
Friends
Happy
Good
SMILE
TTYS
Chloe
- How I feel: tired
Hey Peeps,
Um, nothing much bin happening, other than the swimming carnival, of course =P
I really cbb blogging, because it takes away time that I could be talking to some good friends.
The only reason I am blogging is coz my bro is an ass.
He told me he was turning off the net, then I went out into the family room and asked if I could watch one ep of Naruto in the 20 minutes that he was watching tv, and he said no. I don’t even know why, he wasn’t using it???
Somebody tell me…are all guys like this to their sister? Or does mine just hate me??? [well…hate is too strong…dislike???]
*Sigh*
Anyways I really like this song…sadly, in some ways, I relate to it.
Enjoy the song…
Clo.
Fallen by Sarah McLachlan
Heaven bend to take my hand
And lead me through the fire
Be the long awaited answer
To a long and painful fight
Truth be told I've tried my best
But somewhere along the way
I got caught up in all there was to offer
And the cost was so much more than I could bear
Though I've tried, I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...
We all begin with good intent
Love was raw and young
We believed that we could change ourselves
THe past could be undone
But we carry on our backs the burden
Time always reveals
In the lonely light of morning
In the wound that would not heal
It's the bitter taste of losing everything
That I've held so dear.
I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...
Heaven bend to take my hand
Nowhere left to turn
I'm lost to those I thought were friends
To everyone I know
Oh they turn their heads embarassed
Pretend that they don't see
But it's one missed step
One slip before you know it
And there doesn't seem a way to be redeemed
Though I've tried, I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...
And lead me through the fire
Be the long awaited answer
To a long and painful fight
Truth be told I've tried my best
But somewhere along the way
I got caught up in all there was to offer
And the cost was so much more than I could bear
Though I've tried, I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...
We all begin with good intent
Love was raw and young
We believed that we could change ourselves
THe past could be undone
But we carry on our backs the burden
Time always reveals
In the lonely light of morning
In the wound that would not heal
It's the bitter taste of losing everything
That I've held so dear.
I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...
Heaven bend to take my hand
Nowhere left to turn
I'm lost to those I thought were friends
To everyone I know
Oh they turn their heads embarassed
Pretend that they don't see
But it's one missed step
One slip before you know it
And there doesn't seem a way to be redeemed
Though I've tried, I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...
[2X]
- How I feel: sore
- What I'm listening to:Fallen - Sarah McLachlan
Ummm...got to school at a little after half-past. When I was going to my locker, I saw James, Seng and Ankur at the canteen...i said hi, but I am not really sure it registered =P
Went to my locker...actually, embarrassingly enough, I talked to myself the whole way to, at and from my locker....OUTLOUD...rofl...really couldn't help myself...I just do that sometimes, I have conversations with myself, I question myself and answer myself and even as I blog, I am talking aloud to myself (^.~) Rofl.
Then I ran into Peter and Kai [? cant remember =P ?] And gave Peter a book, then went inside to try and do work [failed miserably.] Wasn't really in the mood to work, and kept getting distracted. Rach kept telling me to do my work...ROFL...since when to i follow instructions?!?! Rofl...NEVER!!! That's why am called stubborn by EVERYONE[you know who you are]
I had some classes, did some stuff...as you can see i dont really feel like blogging....
Went to Stud and had some interesting arguments [NO-ONE LISTENS TO ME *wails*]
Came home, watched naruto til mum came home and said to get off the computer.
I am creating a "Profile of Chloe"
So far I have:
Arrogant =P
Over proud =P
Egotisticle =P
Weird
Annoying
Moody
PEOPLE - POST YOUR COMMENTS...HELPME MAKE A PROFILE =D =D =D =D =D =D -D =D =D -D =D =D =D
See you soon
Clo...
- How I feel: tired yet again *worries*
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